its beautiful over here, the buildings, the roads, the parks..the riverside….and its nice to walk in the evening with partially cloudy , nice breeze .. with sound of music being played at the corner of a park ….every one would love to live in this place and enjoy life while walking through roads which have touched numerous great scholars, philosophers, sceintists…but despite all this i am unable to enjoy it ,despite knowing tht these are the things tht i always loved i am not associating myself to them , there seems to be somthing missing and i think i know wat is missing , and thts worrying me , why have i become so weak , why can’t i just enjoy what ever i have and not long for more , but i guess i am just another human , and rather a weak one………
Archive for August, 2008
its been a while since i wrote my last post, oh no wait, its been only 10 days , and it feels such a long time, becuase so many things happened in my life in these last ten days ……i have moved from one end of the world to another, moved from a carefree life in a nice, expensive apartment to a another world where i have to care about every thing , from my phone balance to my bank account …..during last 10 days i have met people who suddenly became so important in my life , and yet they disapeared so quickly ……in these last 10 days i have forgotton people who were important in my life……
in these last ten days i came so close to falling in love ………
What is trust ? can it be earned? how can it be established. Should you trust some one you have met only for 4 days ? should you beleive every word that person is saying , even though you know you do not have to believe? should you assume that this person is also trusting you , even though you know that person is careful in trusting others? if that is the case how do you make sure the person trusts? and what if you really want that person to trust you becuase you are being straight?
all these questions are fairly relevant to an ordinary person like me, who likes to follow his heart, a person who likes to think that if his heart says that the person should be trusted he will, he likes to jump in things where apparently he should not be , but his heart tells him that he has to , who likes to think that people will understand that he honestly cares that is why he is jumping in , even though he does not significantly matter to them.
I know this is not how things work in this world, I know you can not just follow your heart all the time, I know you should not be that naive but that how i am , and I think I like myself this way , I just hope I am not forced to change myself
why do they all look so nice, so sweet , so bold, so straight
we fall for them , in advertently, all
little we know, of dirt and filth
hidden behind the pretty eyes,
eyes so dark ,ladden with maskaras
so deep , so bright , so pretty
they all look the same and yet
we die to believe they are so different
death is all tht we can acheive
for they dun faltter,they never wither
so in africa if you are healthy (read Fat ) and wealthy you would be the most eligble man , according to one pretty african lady , this is consolling for me at a time when i havee become healthy(read fat) but more than that i have grwon a tummy , and not a single one of my acquentences pass by without commenting on my tummy , i am sick of it
seems like i would have to go to africa if i continue to be like this , which is not a bad option either i think 
I am just sad and bored having nothing to do sitting in student lounge , and mourning my laptop as the IT people said it might not be worth fixing 
i am sick of ACER, my advice never ever buy an acer laptop, spend some more and get anything else, not acer
